Where i punish myself for letting go and giving you all of me. I do a break up before the real life one. I abuse myself in all the ways i know how to until I’m numb. So when it’s time for you to break my heart, i promise myself that it won’t hurt as much.
Only problem is, i can’t handle it this time. Letting go of you is like letting go of everything that’s good in my life. If i let you go, I’m letting go of the one thing that’s keeping my head above the water.